Something's Missing

Monday my husband took a picture of the kids in front of the tree when I wasn't around.  When I got onto facebook I saw I was tagged in the picture.  It was a good picture.  But something about it stirred something inside of me.  I really realized how much was missing from that picture.  Don't get me wrong, I am SO VERY BLESSED by the four beautiful children God has given us, but you could see the gap there.  I mean it's like stair steps and then a very big gap- ages 10, 8, 6 and then 2.  It made me sad for a minute.  I didn't cry.  I didn't question God.  I just contemplated how that situation could be different.  Imagine how full our arms will be in heaven with all of our children around us!!!  There won't be gaps in photos or missing children!  I am healing.  Sure, I have sad moments, times I desire to hold my little baby.  Times I just want him now.  But, I have a hope that again one day I'll be united with my babies, and Lord willing all of my children will be there and we'll all dance at the feet of Jesus and continually sing praise to Him!