The past couple of days have been a bit more difficult for some reason. Last night my children had their Christmas program. As I lay in bed, I pondered how different the day would have been had our baby been here too. I was already busy with doing school, getting dinner, baking something for the program and getting the kiddos ready. I was thinking how much more work it would have been with a newborn- trying to fit in feedings and all! But I would love that! Just little things sometimes hit you...how you'd have another child to bundle up to go out in the cold. Or how our room would be different if we had a cradle in it...with a new baby sleeping next to us. Last night I was wishing I could nurse my baby boy and hold him close. I was imagining him gazing up at my face as he nursed...his precious little face. I was even thinking about how after I have a baby I sweat like crazy at night and how I'd probably still be doing that!!!
Thursday night I went out with the Mommies with Hope group and made Christmas decorations. Since I recently made one at another function for Nathaniel and didn't have any for my other babies I made one for each of them. When I get them back I'll post a picture of them. I thought maybe it'd be hard to do, but the group of ladies made it great. It's crazy to think that a bunch of ladies who miss their babies can have such a good time together!!!
I wanted to buy some battery operated candles (three) to put in my living room windows for my babies, but the ones I looked at so far were so ugly! I know they'd be hidden in a window, but still, I didn't want something so ugly! I'm hoping to browse a few other stores at some point.
How sweet to remember your children with the ornaments. I hope then come out as precious as they sound.
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