Finding Joy?

You know, when I first heard about this retreat I thought, "I can't go- it's the weekend before what would have been my due date and I just can't do that."  Well, the more I thought about it the more I thought about how good it would be for me.  Little did I know just how good it would be.  I think if I hadn't gone I'd be mulling over the what if's and why's.  But because I did go I keep replaying in my mind the various things I learned.  That's not saying that Wednesday will be an easy day, or even the week for that matter, but my mind is on other things- those which are TRUE and PURE (Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.)  Praise God! 

Another thing that really spoke to me this weekend was about finding joy in all circumstances.  Of course I keep hearing this but have been struggling to find out how.  How do you find joy when you're told your baby has no heartbeat?  How do you find joy when you're told your baby is going to die?  We so often think of joy as a feeling...like happiness.  But it is a state of mind.  Lysa said we can't let our circumstances dictate us.  How true is that!  And how often do we do just that!?!?  She talked about how maybe God is protecting us from something or has something better in store for us in regards to "bad" circumstances.  Those are both things I've pondered through my losses.  And so we need to keep these things in mind and let God work!  It's sure not always easy.