What is Going On???? August 7, 2006

I am not even sure what to write. Everything is up in the air. I passed clots, big old blobs that I was certain was a baby. Yesterday I endured hours of horrible cramping that felt like labor. Finally I went to the ER. The doctor had just wanted me to wait until today to go in for an ultrasound but I was in so much pain I could not wait. So, we sat and sat in the waiting room. At the end of it all- my Hcg levels were normal and there was still a fetus in my uterus! They still could not detect a heartbeat, but said that isn't abnormal. When the did a doppler they thought that they detected a heartbeat. Now it is back to the waiting game. I went in this morning to see the doctor but he has deliveries up the creek so I need to go back after lunch. Let me tell you that if this baby is still alive it will be such a testimony- a complete miracle of our Sovereign Lord. And if this baby is to pass I really want it to happen soon- and to not go through all of the pain I have already been through. Thank you all for your prayers. I will keep you posted. Right now I am lying in bed (on my laptop) relaxing and making everybody else do the work! If there is a chance this baby can live I am not jeopordizing anything! Keep praying!